Friendship games 2011 is going to be my last one. Along with Reiji, it was kind of decided that there is no return trips anymore. I felt that it was a really great trip for him. He vented. ALOT. He might seem like one of the most down to earth, always steady and composed guy around but there is an ocean of emotions that he is holding in. And the fear. As he prepares to get his OWN life started. I’m glad he was able to get that out and was able to have a good time this weekend.
The bitter part of this trip was the ending of my relationship. I felt that we had recurring problems, all due to me. Its been my fault and at this point, I don’t even know if I can go on and be with another girl. Out of all m relationships, though, I thought that if this one ended, we would be great friends, but… it doesn’t look that way at all. Quite the opposite actually. She wants everything back and pretend that I have never existed in her life. And when you find something like that out, you can’t help but feel like you are the scum of the earth. I mean how do you move on from that? I feel disgusting out of all things.
Bleh. It is what it is.
